Thursday, October 29, 2009
Grandchildren
adorable. As Aaron and Andrea are moving, I get to watch some of their children. Rebecca, age
5, brought with her a special envelope which was all sealed up with money inside. On the outside
she had written "Rebecca Disneyland Money". Then she gave it to me for my pills. She said
that she had earned it by doing lots of chores and was saving it for Disney Land... but she
changed her mind. I was so touched.
We emptied it onto the bed and counted out the nickles and dimes and pennies. It was two
dollars and 95 cents. What a sacrifice. It really is special that my grandchildren want to help
me. I know that their money is like the widow's mite and that the Lord recognizes their money
as such. I love being their grandmother.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Blessings from Heaven
Lord is right there to bless me through so many angels on earth. My brothers and sisters each
contributed and together were able to come up with $1,100, which is very helpful. Then today,
another angel dropped $100 off at my door.
Larry's parents gave us money as well. It's wonderful to know that I am being taken
care of and that somehow the money comes in. Our son in law, Bryan is also
working to put together a golf tournament with pledges, to go towards my medicine. I
know that our loving Heavenly Father watches over us and He hears our heartfelt prayers. So
many people on earth are in tune with the Spirit and are willing to sacrifice for little old me. I
feel very blessed! (By the way, if anyone ever reads this blog and has questions about my experience at the Burzynski Clinic you can email me at musicmanning@gmail.com and I would love to talk with you about it)
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
False Alarm!
to talk about the boy and the big balloon that went up into the sky. So.....the Dr.
Burzynski is suppose to on either tonight or Friday night. Please try to watch it if
you can.
I had a very special blessing occur today. Larry and I have been concerned about
getting more pills for me as it is quite costly. We just don't have the money right
now and needed to order them. After much pleading, the Burzynski Clinic is going
to send us a week supply of the PB (cancer pills) free. Yay! That will give us some
more time. Also, my sister, Mary, said that some of my brothers and sisters gave
her some money last night at her birthday party to give to me. So, I may be able to
by my Tykerb on Wednesday. I know that the Lord is watching over me and our
family. But, please continue to keep me in your prayers and pray that we will be
able to have the pills that I need to live! Thanks so much, Margaret
Saturday, October 17, 2009
CNN
Dr. Burzynski will be on the Larry King Live Show (CNN) on Monday,
October 19th at 6 pm. He is going to talk about what they do at the clinic
and why he can help people with cancer. I'm so excited to see the show
and hope that everyone I love can see it too. He's kind of shy but very
intelligent and full of energy. Hope you can watch it.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Cancer Clinic
rituxin finishes through my IV. It is great to have computers down here.
This is the third week of four and then I'm done with this series until April. yay!
The people down here so nice and very humble. but, I am so glad that I am not taking
chemo...because in all honesty...many of them are very sick. But, I always enjoy my visits
with the nurses and the patients around me. It's an experience that I'm glad to have.
It's been a very busy week with lots of activities. The saddest thing is that my brother, Stephen,
passed away. The funeral was wonderful and Mary and the family did an amazing job. but, my
heart hurts for him and I will miss him so much. Other things that happened are we got to enjoy
Jonathan and Carrie's kids for several days while they went on a business trip. All in all it went
well until I either sprained or broke my toe. Fortunately, it happened the evening before they
returned and picked up the kids. But it was really nice having them.
Our pipe broke in the front yard and the water was off....but we got it repaired.
We were able to plant much of our garden with our grand kids help and they
had a lot of fun. Emma was sick most of the time but she felt good about helping to plant a few
flowers in the front yard. Lily was ecstatic that she learned to ride a two wheeler all by herself.
I forgot to mention, the 2 baby blessings went very well on Sunday and now this Sunday, will be
one more. I'm so happy to be alive and not be sick with chemo treatment so that I can enjoy
these special times with my family. Life is wonderful and I am enjoying every moment of it. Got
to go because my IV is done.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Dr. Burzynski
wonderful. Dr. Burzynski knows exactly what he is doing, and is very detailed with my case. He reveiwed
the Gene Marker test results and the Her2 protein was with- in range. Yeah! I got to meet with 4 doctors today. They are
Dr. Marquee, Dr. Kubove and Dr. Kahn. One is an oncologist, another a regular doctor I believe, and then the radiologist.
I had my list of about 15 questions answered and had my medicine adjusted. Good news, the tykerb has been reduced to
2 a day instead of 3 a day...a savings of about $700.00 a month. The zolinza has been changed as well.
Also, I am to drink 1/2 cup of grapefruit juice with my rapamune to help it work better.
Overall, I am greatly improving and as Dr. Burzynski himself said...he believes by the next appointment
or by February...I may be all better. He is very hopeful. (although I will need to continue with the rituxan every 6 months
for maintenance for 2-3 years...depending on blood results)
It's truly a blessing to be able to experience this miracle in my life. I appreciate all the prayers for me and our family.
Even the guy helping us at the airport asked my name and said that he would pray for me. I started to cry, it was so
embarrassing. Larry and the family very supportive and it sure makes it easier for me.
So, my job is to keep taking the pills and pray that Larry can afford to buy them.
We are being blessed with more work which will help. It also is a great blessing to have our son, Thomas, serving
in the mission field. He is working hard and sending blessings our way.
Houston is very humid. Some of the store windows are covered with moisture. It's 75% humidity. I don't mind it
though. With huge oak trees and New England homes...it's very pretty. We also went to the Houston Temple this
afternoon. The Spirit was strong and more inspiration came to both of us. We are just having a great time together.
Our hotel is very nice with a living room, a king size bed which is very comfortable...etc. etc. It's called the Sheraton and
it's located right in the middle of Houston. We put in a bid to priceline.com and said that we would pay $49.00 a night
they accepted our price. It has a heated pool and a jacuzi, a gym and more. They deliver us the newspaper and
yea....we're spoiled and loving it!
But the most important part of this trip was going to the clinic and getting the care. We spent
about 45 minutes with the radiologist and he showed us the difference in the pet scans. It was quite interesting as he
showed us the cross section of my body and compared the pet scans. Most of the tumors have gotten smaller and the
cancer is less active... or is gone. Everyone that works at the clinic is so upbeat and very professional. It's very impressive
and you just don't want to leave it. We love to be there.
Friday I go to the clinic in Chandler for the rutixin IV and will contine it for the next two Fridays after that.
Oh, and by the way... Dr. Burzynski will be on the Larry King Live Show on CNN on Monday, Oct. 19th. I think at 6 pm.
They are preparing for more patients. They are always very busy but will most likely get a lot busier. Well, Larry
is falling to sleep down here in the lobby and wants me to go up to the hotel room. So...good night!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Pet Scan Results back
Ct/Pen Scan with me and sure enough I am continually improving. The conclusion
reads: There has been further improvement with decrease in size and decrease in the SUV of
mulitple bilateral axillary, chest wall, pelvic, and inguinal lymph nodes. Several lymph nodes in
the chest have resolved. No new lymph nodes are seen and there is no increase in the maximum
SUV in any of the lymph nodes.
My doctor is very pleased with the results and wants me to continue with what I am doing so
far. I am not all the way healed yet...but am progressing along very well. Monday we will head
off to the Burzynski Clinic and find out more and have the medicine adjusted. So...good news for
Margaret!
I just want to thank each of you for your prayers. It means so much to me to think that faithful
people are asking God to bless me. I believe in miracles and it is by the prayers of many that I
am being healed.
Love,
Margaret
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Family Support
check-off paper....then took a warm shower...and wanted to share my feelings on
my little blog. It's been a wonderful day and it's not over yet. As I am typing, my husband
and children (except Thomas who is serving a mission in Washington) are all together conversing
about ways to raise money for my pills. I wasn't invited. I'm glad. So, they are over at Maria
and Bryan's house brainstorming different ideas for fund raisers. Larry called the family
meeting and they all responded favorably. If I was with them, I would feel so bad and yet very
appreciative as well. I have mixed emotions. I mean, three of them recently had babies, one is
leaving out of town for a week tomorrow, one is moving at the end of the week....one is sick. I
really appreciate their help but they can hardly take care of their own little families. So, it is
better that I am home and where I won't get in the way. (Just kidding)
But, on the other side of the coin ( and I use the word coin, because that is what I am thinking
about right now) it's good to have the family all draw together for a common cause..to help their
mom. It's really a blessing in disguise, because sacrifice brings forth rich blessings. I just know
that the Lord is with our family at this time and that we are all in this together. Larry is doing a
great job with rallying the family together tonight. I love all of them very much. So, it will be a
surprise to see what they all come up with and I'm sure the next few months will be full of
adventures for me, the family and many others that may be involved. Life is great. The miracle
continues. Your prayers are felt and much needed! May the Lord bless everyone who is praying
and helping in anyway.
x0x0 Margaret
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Gene Marker-Oncogene Tests!
Yesterday, I got my Gene Marker or Oncogene Testing done at Sonora Lab. The
test tubes are now on ice and are on the way to a lab in California where it is done.
Many people want to know more about the clinic and just what Dr. Burzynski
does.....so if you are interested...I have copied a little from "The Townsend
Letter" Aug/Sept. 2008 issue below that is simple and very interesting. Happy
reading!
In the 1960s, Stanislaw Burzynski, MD, PhD, a young physician and researcher in Poland,
discovered novel peptides, or protein fragments, in the blood. Noting that these peptides were
absent in patients who had cancer, he theorized that they must have something to do with the
body's cancer protection system. And indeed they do, for Dr. Burzynski's discovery cuts right to
the heart of both the cause and the cure for cancer.
Cancer cells, whether in the brain, pancreas, lung, breast, or elsewhere, have one thing in
common: undisciplined, uncontrolled division that can destroy tissues around them, metastasize,
and cause death. This is driven by changes in gene expression, chief among them a "silencing" or
"turning off" of tumor suppressor genes, resulting in an increase in oncogene activity that leads
to cancer cell proliferation. If silencing tumor suppressor genes increases oncogene activity and
spurs cancer growth, then the inverse is also true. Turning on tumor suppressor genes and
turning off oncogenes shuts down cancer.
A Real Cancer Cure
This is exactly what the peptides Dr. Burzynski discovered – which he named antineoplastons –
do. Antineoplastons are the body's innate defense system against cancer; they normalize gene
expression and prevent unruly cell division. When these peptides are in short supply, cancer
goes on a cell-division rampage. But when they're abundant, cancer cell proliferation stops, and
cancer goes away. It's that simple.
Antineoplastons explain the inexplicable in cancer. How can a woman have a normal
mammogram with no evidence of tumors, then die nine months later from rapidly growing
breast cancer? Why does another woman with the same type of cancer survive for years, with or
without any treatment? The answer lies in the concentration of antineoplastons circulating in the
patient's body. Those who succumb to cancer are virtually devoid of these peptides, while those
who have them in greater abundance are far more likely to survive.
Dr. Burzynski figured out how to isolate these peptides from blood and urine and eventually how
to synthesize them in a lab and administer them to patients. He first proved the safety of this
therapy. There's no danger of antineoplaston treatment harming healthy tissues because it
doesn't poison or burn cells – it simply gives the body what it needs to stop uncontrolled cell
division. And he has clearly demonstrated its effectiveness in scores of clinical trials and
thousands of patients, many of whom were singing Dr. Burzynski's praises on that special night
in Houston. This is why I consider antineoplastons to be the single-most important breakthrough
in cancer therapy ever and possibly the only one we will ever need. Antineoplastons are to
rapidly growing and universally fatal cancers what penicillin is to pneumonia.
For those of you who have made it to the bottom and have read
this....congratulations! It's really interesting isn't it. So, next week is the 3rd
petscan and then I have an appointment with Dr. Burzynski on Oct. 7th. Larry
and I will be heading off to the Texas clinic again. Miracles never cease!!!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Family Over
enjoyed having a nice dinner and celebrated 2 birthdays. Busy times....lots of fun! I love life. I
love my family. It's exciting to be alive at this time in history when so much is happening. I'm
learning a lot about faith, hope, and charity. I'm continuing to learn from the scriptures and am
finding hidden treasures. I enjoyed going to the temple on Saturday and am looking forward to
going on Tuesday with Jessika to do Baptisms. Life is busy and I am keeping up with it. Yeah!
God is keeping His promises to me and I know that He will continue. One of the reasons for the
blessings is because of our son Thomas who is serving a full time mission in Washington. It's
true. He is our fourth son to serve and we have always received amazing blessings while our
sons have been serving. So, although we miss him very much and it is a sacrifice for us....it's well
worth it. It's so exciting to know that he is blessing so many people's lives and bringing souls to
Christ. At the same time, I am being healed. I am so tired, so goodnight!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Continued Health
on. I have the ability to just walk and walk and walk. I hardly get tired
anymore. It used to be that when we went to Sam's Club, I would need to sit in the
electric cart instead of walk. I don't ever do that anymore. It's been a long time.
We have had a wonderful week as we have a young woman named Jessika Brown
that is staying with us until next Wednesday. She was baptized by our son,
Thomas, who is a wonderful missionary serving in Tacoma Washington. Anyway,
she moved down here to Arizona to stay with her aunt in Gilbert. It didn't work
out as planned. So, we are enjoying her this week in our home. She is continuing
to grow in the Gospel and is learning so much everyday. Everyone just loves her.
We will miss her when she leaves to move back to Washington. It's been a great
experience for us. I also enjoyed watching one of my darling grand sons today,
as Christina went grocery shopping. I held him the whole time and rocked him.
So fun! Also, I've been enjoying my niece and nephew this week as well, as my
sister is out of town.
So, it's been a great week. Lots of people at our house and fun times!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Health Blessing
visit my brother Stephen who has been there since August 3rd. He's been sick for a year now
and the doctors are still trying to figure out what is wrong. They know he has lesions in his brain
and are trying to help him with chemo and steriods, etc....etc....etc. So, he has a feeding
tube and he is numb on his left side. He is very sick.
Tonight, we went to visit him and my sister Martha and her husband drove over as well. Also,
our son, Jonathan drove all the way from Queen Creek. But, it was for a very special reason.
Not only did we want to cheer him up and visit with him but it was for the reason of giving
him a healing blessing. He asked if Doug would offer a prayer, which he did, and the Spirit
was very strong. Then Larry anointed his head with oil and Jonathan give the blessing.
He spoke the words that were put into his mouth and it was amazing. It was one of the most
powerful blessings I have ever heard. The Spirit was so strong and we all felt of the love of
God and felt his presence there with us. I remembered the special blessings that were
given to me...blessings of healing.....and I felt the same feelings from the Spirit as I listened
to Stephen's blessing. I testify that God loves us. He knows each one of us and is very aware
of our illnesses and trials. It is through the atonement and faith in Jesus Christ that we are
healed. I am so grateful for the priesthood power that is on the earth today. I know that even
as I am being healed that my brother will be healed as well. What a special experience this
has been for all of us involved. We wept tears of joy!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Enjoying Life
and be able to do the things that I need and want to do. It's such a blessing from
Heavenly Father, to grant me this desire of my heart. I'm just so grateful for his
bounteous blessings in my behalf!
So, if you wonder if God is still a God of Miracles, then look no further. He is
working a magnificent miracle on little old me. It's true! I'm so grateful to be
the recipient of His blessings and hope that everyone receives the righteous
blessings of their hearts as well. Have a wonderful day and week!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Third baby here
glad he is here safe and sound and that Christina is doing good also. He weighed 9 pounds 5.6
ounces and was 20 inches long. He looks a lot like Joseph. They named him Craig. He was
breech and was stuck in a strange position and the doctors couldn't turn him.
He's so darling or rather handsome and big compared to baby Miriam who was almost
half the size. So now we have our two big boys and our little girl. We call them our triplets as
they were all born within 6 days of each other. We know the hospital pretty well by now.
Tonight we have a couple of Aaron's children spending the night and in the morning we will be
going to watch Aaron participate in a triathalon. So we be leaving by 5:30 am. I better get to
bed. We are really tired. By the way, the tumors in my groin area are truly shrinking... or
disappearing. My energy level is really good as well. All glory be to God... who is performing
one of His mighty miracles. I feel so blessed and extremely grateful for life. I just count my
blessings everyday. Life is wonderful and I love being a wife, mother and grandmother!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
I love being a Grandma!
only 5 pounds 16 ounces. Cutest little thing! I count my blessings that I have had good enough
health to care for their two oldest children...until last night when Carrie was released from the
hospital. Then a few hours later....Aaron and Andrea's baby boy was born. So, this morning,
Maria and I went down to see him (We hardly ever get to see each other anymore as she is
always serving and helping and I've been busy on my end as well) and Christina and Joseph
arrived to perhaps have their baby today. Our little (or big) grandson is very handsome. They
have named him Spencer Don. While we were visiting, Spencer needed to have his diaper
changed. I quickly volunteered and it took three of us to do it. Andrea had to given the
instructions as to where everything was and to make sure we used vaseline on his circumcision
and Maria and I accomplished the task. It was so fun! So.....Grandma days are filled with fun.
I'm enjoying it so much.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
A Wonderful Day
James mowed the lawn and edged it and it looks beautiful.
Larry made sure the weeds all got pulled out of the garden with a little help. We enjoyed having
Aaron and Andrea's 3 children over this morning and afternoon. We painted, made little cookies
in the easy bake oven and read stories. We just received a call from Jonathan... that Carrie is
needing to go to the hospital... as her contractions aren't stopping. So, Maria is going to take the
two youngest children and we are going to get the older two. So, that will be fun! I love having
the grand children and family around. Maria has been very busy lately with all that she
does to help everyone and we really need her right now as 3 are expecting babies within the
next week or two in our family. (or maybe tonight)Busy times, but we are up to it.
I am so glad that I can take my pills and not be sick.
It seems like it is a full time job to just swallow them at the right times during the day
and make sure I eat food with most of them...and then check them off my list. It's a blessing to
even have them... as they are so expensive. But, they are certainly working! Life is good!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Angels
have been there for me today so far.
I got to go to Susan Brown's home this morning and just being with her blesses my life. Her
home is healing as well. Then Sharon Lindblom came by with fresh ripe blackberries that make
the mouth water and a bag full of peaches that are now in a basket on my counter. Larry fixed
my broken dishwasher by taking all the parts out by using a screwdriver and cleaning the
peices. Yeah! Then, Adele LeSueur came to the door with fresh whole wheat bread and
brought a sweet spirit with her as she visited in our home. Larry and I had a scrumptious
sandwich after she left, using the bread...and we needed it, how did she know? (we had also just
run out of fresh fruit) Then, my wonderful sister Helen called and we talked about a lot of things
and she was so caring and concerned about us. It just felt good to be remembered. So, I am so
spoiled again today. Angels are near by on this earth as well as in the spirit world around me. I
feel of God's hand and blessings daily.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Auction in October
medicine. I'm thinking that it might be helpful. Does anyone have something they would be
able to auction off? Please let me know by emailing me at musicmanning@gmail.com
I hate to be so needy but we are also looking to get some tickets to Houston Texas for 2 people at
the end of September. So.....that's what we need. I'm scheduled for another pet scan and Gene
Marker test mid September and need to see Dr. Burzynski at the end of that month. Then in
October I start the rituxin series again (which I need to have every 6 months for 3 years) But
basically, I plan to be a lot better by Spring. What an exciting adventure life is with all its twists
and turns. Life is wonderful...it really is.
Larry and I are cleaning out the garage today and since Larry took a quick trip to DI to drop off
a load of things... I thought it would be nice to take a breather and write on this blog. Last week
was hard and I was kind of sick... but this week is a different story. I'm trying to get our house
in order before the 3 grand kids are born and the holidays arrive. It's great to feel good and be
able to do things. I stay so busy just taking my cute little pills. It's crazy but I honestly take 40
pills a day and they are all spaced out at different times. But they are working... and that is
whats important.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
An amazing scripture!
me so excited. So.....I decided to share them on this blog!
"Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble.
The Lord will preserve him, and keep him alive; and he shall be blessed upon the earth; and thou
wilt not deliver him unto the will of his enemies.
The Lord will strengthen him upon the bed of lanquishing; thou wilt make all his bed in his
sickness."
Then in the foot notes it reads "Heal all his infirmities when he is sick."
Aren't those amazing verses? I think how much I want to repay everyone for helping me with
money towards my pills and I just can't pay them back. It's so comforting to know that God will
repay them by healing all their infirmities when they are sick. I love it! What powerful verses
those are. Thank you everyone who is blessing me at this time.
By the way, my PB (cancer) pills arrived today....just in time so that I didn't run out of them. It
feels so good to have a months supply of them again.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
A Joyous Week!
darling couple! The reception was beautiful and the Stapley family delighted us all with the
musical band numbers as well as their daughters singing a song. Yes, we are very pleased and
feel that James has married well. Julie also has done well to get James.
Larry was able to make it through the day with his eye. He is starting to be able to see out of the
top of his eye now...which is very exciting. We both had a very busy day yesterday and crashed
last night. We had so much help and support from many friends and family members. The
Stapley Family did a wonderful job with the reception set up as well... and we enjoyed working
with them.
Our daughter in law, Carrie, has been in the hospital for a couple of days and will need to stay
there due to some pregnancy complications, until the baby is born. So, I am playing Mommy to
my grandchildren. Larry and I are enjoying them but they sure keep us busy. Jonathan is
working and taking care of Carrie and seeing the kids when he can. I will be spending the night
in Queen Creek for a week so.. good luck to me. I do love my grand kids and am grateful for the
strength that I have right now. (And may it continue!)
Oh, the best news! Some wonderful and generous person donated $5,000 to my health care!
So, the pressure is off a bit right now. I can order some pills. I am just sitting here smiling:)
It's makes me so happy that Heavenly Father is looking after me! Thank you so much to
whoever donated the money and may God bless you with the righteous desires of your heart. I
am going to sleep peacefully tonight.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Hospitals and surgery
morning and is home recovering. He has to lay on his left side for 3 days. His retina was
detached and his eye was hemoraging so if it wasn't for excellent skilled surgeons he probably
would have lost his eye sight.
Our daughter Christina and daughter in law Carrie, both were in the hospital this week but
fortunately are doing better. Carrie is suppose to be on bed rest but it's hard for her to stay
down with 4 children and the 5th on it's way soon. Then Joseph, our son in law, was in the
hospital many times this week. They couldn't figure out what the problem was, but have finally
discovered that he has asthma and a few other things wrong as well.
Then we have the wedding in 2 days. So, yeah, we've been busy around here. I'm still on
antibiotics for my sinus infection and have had to go off a couple of my pills for 10 days, but it is
clearing up. We are all starting to breathe easier. (That's suppose to be funny) Maria brought
in a delicious dinner to us of her famous beans, salmon, and tasty cornbread cooked with honey.
She is a sweet heart! I just kind of hung out at the house and my job was to keep Larry laying
down on his side all day. He doesn't enjoy it and tries to get up whenever he can. We will be
seeing the doctor tomorrow but he has to lay down in the car on his left side while we travel to
and from the appointment.
Besides all the health concerns, we have spent some time getting acquainted with a young
woman named Jessika Brown. She was baptized just 2 months ago by our son Elder Manning in
Washington and has moved to Gilbert AZ. Her friends and cousin were also baptized and her
mother will be soon. She's been fun to get to know and is just soaking up the gospel, making
some friends and getting situated in her new area.
So, we are all looking forward to the temple wedding on Friday and the reception of our son
James and his future wife Julie that we love. One thing that I've been learning through the
years is that blessings and trials come hand in hand. It's amazing how many blessings we are
receiving right now and the funny thing is that they often come with trials. I just want to name
some of our blessings that we are in the midst of receiving.
A temple marriage for our son to a wonderful young woman
Having a missionary serving in the field who is working very hard and having much success
Larry getting his eye taken care of so he can see well
Having 3 more grand children soon to be born in the next few weeks.
Having more work for our business so that we can pay our bills and hopefully pay for some pills
My infection is clearing up if not gone already
The tumors are shrinking and dying and leaving and yeah! I am getting better...I can feel it!
Our family is getting closer through much service
My faith and the faith of my husband and children and grandchildren is growing stronger daily
I can feel the prayers, love and strength from many loved ones on the other side of the veil
I'm getting a lot out of the scriptures and am finding hidden treasures through my studying
I feel the love and faith of so many friends, and loved ones and I need that!
We learned this month that 10,000 dollars that we had borrowed from a "wonderful secret person or
family"doesn't need to be paid back. They just gave it to us and said that if we are ever able to
donate back to Positive Impact in the future that we could do that.
They already gave 10,000 before to my health care. So....I hope they know
that they are amazing and my life has been rescued. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
I've realized that you can't make it alone. It takes the faith and help of others. Thank you to all
that have helped me and are continuing to be there for me. I love you all!
I just feel so blessed and I wish the same for each of you! God is truly a God of miracles!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
I love life!
I love... that all start with a "D", and I've been enjoying them today. They are Dancing
(especially ballet...that I don't even know anything about but dance around the house pretending
to be a 53 year old ballerina) and Decorating (my grown kids think I'm crazy to be
redecorating so often .....but I love it!) and last but not least...Delicious Pies
(Fruit..no sugar) that our kind neighbor brings over occasionally! So...those are the Three D's
that I love! It seems like I appreciate life even more now since it could have been snatched
away from me so easily.
I remember one of my mother's favorite quotes that has taken on much meaning
in my life. It is "Life is fragile...handle with prayer." I've found that to be true!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Doctor's appointments
James' darling fiancee. (With the help of my wonderful sister in laws who brought all the food
and decorations) Also, for the past week, Larry and I have been working hard at bringing over
all the stuff from the apartment side to our side to get it ready for James and Julie to live there.
It's kind of a trick to find places to put everything. James' old room is now the sewing room...
........the storage room....a library full of books...a craft room...full of decorative items....
and all the pictures....and more. Wow! I am a pack rat I guess. We've changed almost
every room around trying to find places for things and then changed pictures on the walls again.
It's crazy, but fun!
We were also privileged to have one of Thomas' converts from Washington visit us. Thomas had
found and baptized a young lady named Jessica Brown just a couple of months ago, and she
ended up moving to Gilbert to live with an aunt. So we got to visit and find out all about Thomas
or "Elder Manning" and how he is doing. It was great to see the fruit of his labors.
Yesterday and today have been full of doctor appointments. I went to the primary care
doctor as well as my oncologist and also had a CT scan. I have a sinus infection and have been
put on antibiotics for 10 days. So....they have taken me off of a couple of medicines temporarily.
Anyway...about the tumors. Dr. Kellogg said that they are continuing to shrink and the largest
one was measuring 2.5 cm at the last visit and now it is 2 cm. I am so blessed to have 5 very
amazing doctors. They are first and foremost..my Heavenly Father, who is in charge of
everything...my primary care doctor and staff who sent me in to get the enlarged gland biopsied,
Dr. Hernandez, the surgeon...he is so inspired and very accurate. Then there is Dr. Kellogg, who
is my oncologist. I must not forget Dr. Burzynski and his wonderful staff who are treating me
with all the medicines that are working to kill this cancer. What a team. It's interesting that all of
my doctors are very close to the Spirit and are prayerful. I feel very blessed. I am just in awe
with the everyday miracles that we are experiencing.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Interesting Experience
be blessed financially to be able to pay for our pills and bills. We were excited when Larry
received a call from a man named Gary just a couple of days ago, who was interested in working
for our company. He told us that he has had years of experience in the floor business doing
commercial jobs. He has a lot of contacts and was looking to partner up with a small business
and help it to grow and earn some money as well. So, Larry and I met with him in our home and
we were very hopeful that this man was sent to us as a means of blessings us financially. We sat
down together and from the very beginning, the Spirit whispered "Do not hire this man." As the
conversation continued, we were more and more impressed with him and his experience. He
told us that he randomly felt that he should call us. Again, the Spirit whispered, "don't hire
him." Then, we felt an over pouring feeling to share the gospel with him. We showed him
Thomas' large temple painting with was hanging on the wall and asked him if he had ever seen
it. He said he hadn't and that he had never heard of the Mormons or the Church of Jesus Christ
of Latter-day Saints. We were very surprized. Words just poured out of our mouths and
together we told him about the great apostasy and the restoration of the gospel, modern day
prophets and temple marriage. We invited him to go to the visitors center where he could feel
greater peace and receive more direction in his life. Then, he opened up to us and told us about
his past and his business breakup with his partner last weekend... and other problems with the
law. We realized that he was suppose to call us, but not to be hired to work for us. I know the
Lord cares about all of his children and desires to bless us with the righteous desires of our
hearts. We will continue to try to do our best and move forward as we anxiously await the
promised financial blessings to be able to pay for our pills and bills.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Wonderful Vacation!
Larry, and I, as well as Christina and Joseph all went up to Show Low and stayed at Brent
Thomas' amazing home. We enjoyed their shower with 5 shower heads.
We loved visiting my cheerful sister Carol, up in St. Johns and enjoyed the family pot luck
lunch under the shady trees,in their front yard. It was fun to see Larry's parents old cabin in
Pine top Lakeside as well as Rainbow Lake, where many family memories were made. We also
went to the Snowflake Temple and it was nice to feel the Lord's Spirit so strong there and
receive very special revelation.
So, now we are home and we have been redecorating and changing things again.
James and Julie are also busy fixing up the apartment, getting it ready for their new life
together. They were so cute tonight as they put up a door and moved around a funny shaped
couch and our old piano and tried to make it look good. They need to get some furniture,
table, etc. We are excited for them and their marriage on Aug. 14th.
So, Larry and I are moving forward. It is my job to remember to take my 40 pills a day at all
the different times on my schedule...it's not easy. We are moving forward with our family
business and know that we will be blessed. Somehow we will prosper financially and will be able
to afford all the expensive and life saving medication.
I must mention that we have the most delicious goat milk in our refrigerator. We are milking the
Clouses nubian goats this week and get to have the milk from them. It is so good and doesn't
taste at all like a goat. Cow's milk is off my diet...but not goats milk. So, I am loving it! We plan
to make ice cream with honey this week. Life is wonderful.., challenging, interesting..and
exciting as we are striving to lean heavily upon the Lord and trusting in His plan for us.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
What a week!
was very thin, dirty, and looked injured. I gave it some food and water and decided to try to
catch it and look for the owners. My grand daughters and husband helped out. We used the car
and ended up chasing it all over the neighborhood. Larry used a blanket, cornered it
and threw the blanket over him. We put signs up around the neighborhood, well actually, Larry
did. The dog hid behind the toilet in the bathroom. Then the dog got away again while trying to
take him to the bathroom in the yard.
I chased it again in the car with my grand daughters and nearly gave up.
Then we prayed in the car. If God wanted us to catch it then would He please help us. I
opened the side door and it put its paws up. It wasn't long and we had it again. We took care of
it with Syd Curtis' help...bloody paw, diarrhea, it was just a mess. He went to the bathroom
several places in the car. So the week was spent giving it boiled hamburger and rice to control
the diarrhea. We started to fall in love with this cute dog and named it Bambi because it looked
like a deer and was found out in the grass. After about a day, he started letting us hold him and
bathe him and wrap him up in a little blanket. He was so cute, except for his bad breath. He
loved just sitting in my lap. We found the owner just as the dog was getting
better and it was an answer to a girls prayers. The dog belonged to a 13 year old who had
received it on her 6th birthday. She lives at Horne and 8th Avenue which is miles away. The
dog had disappeared from her home 10 days earlier and come to find out she had prayed and
prayed. She was searching with her parents and hadn't given up hope. The dog came to my
yard and her uncle (who lived near by) happened to see the sign and called us. So, we were sad
to see Bambi go but it was all worth it to see him lick the owner's face and be so happy to be
reunited. I found out that I love chihuahuas.
I'm so happy that a loving Heavenly Father heard a young woman's prayers and that I was able
to be a tool in helping this scared little dog get back home.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Dark Skin
spots. At first, I thought...oh...old age! But then, I realized that Larry had gotten dark skin when
he was on rapamune medication. (Which is an anti rejection drug) And now, I'm on rapamune,
and double the amount that he was on. So, I have to take extra precautions about being in the
sun and wearing sunscreen. I am now trying to cover the skin as much as possible. It's not only
the dark skin but it also makes me more prone to skin cancer in the future. Larry is no longer
on rapamune because they switched his medicine, but he continues to have skin cancer. So, I am
going to try to stay inside as much as possible and wear that sunscreen!
The last couple of days have been spent with grand kids...teaching them to swim..having an
overnight party...visiting the public library...and visiting my daughters at their houses. It's been
so fun, and honestly, it's been along time since my energy level has been that high. I've been
able to teach in Young Women's for two weeks in a row and then at the Leadership Training
Meeting. I just thank my Heavenly Father, who is pouring out blessings upon me and our
family.
I've been studying about desires lately in the scriptures and have read that the Lord "blesses us
according to our desires." While Satan "binds us according to our desires."
I remember that when I was first diagnosed with this illness, I was praying to have the Lord's
will to be done. I didn't seem to get an answer until I expressed my heartfelt DESIRE to God
that I wanted to live and be healed all the way. Then God granted me the blessing that I would
be healed. I am learning that God blesses us according to our desires. (Of course it must be a
good desire and also God's will) And, I know that God is a keeper of promises!
What an exciting adventure to have so many blessings being poured out upon our family at this
time. We are also being inspired with regards to our "Do it Yourself EZ Epozy Kits." The sale of
these will enable us to pay more money towards our medical bills. I marvel at the ways of the
Lord and how he blesses us according to our desires. We are trying to listen and be more in tune,
so that we can be guided along the way. Another blessing that we are receiving is a big one as
well. During our last trip to Houston, Texas, when we went to the Burzynski Clinic, we took the
time to visit our Mortgage Company that happens to be in the same city. We met with a man
that supposedly had been assigned to our case to help us lower our mortgage payment. We had
tried for 6 months, and were almost 3 months behind in payments. He told us what we needed to
do and we took care of the paper work. A few days ago, he called and said that we had qualified.
Our payments will be lowered to where we should be able to pay them monthly. Our desire has
been to stay here in our home and to continue our business. It's been a good set up with our
business in the backyard with a side gate for entrance. This is another one of those tender
mercies that we are experiencing. We live in troubled times and I am learning to trust in the
Lord and let Him help to carry my burden. I am also learning that He LOVES all of us and truly
desires to bless us according to our needs and desires. It is important to be in tune and to listen
to His direction and the promptings that we receive and then to act upon them. I feel very
grateful to Heavenly Father for his marvelous ways and the miracles that are occurring in our
family.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
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Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Home from the Burzynski Clinic
for two days. They are really pleased with how I am responding to the medications and how
the tumors are diminishing and disappearing. We got to meet with several doctors, including
Dr. Burzynski. He said that the Gene Marker Test came back and he needed to adjust my
medication. We asked a lot of questions and received many answers. The Medical Director of
Hemato-oncology, from Tokyo Japan was there. He is learning from Dr. Burzynski and will be
using his treatment plan in Japan. Larry and I met with the radiologist who explained to us the
scans on the computer and how to understand them. They say that I have improved over 50%
in the past 3 months and feel very confident that I will completely heal. (Which I know I will!)
Suzanne Somers (in the t.v. sitcom Three's Company) recently interviewed Dr. Burzynski
and is very interested in his alternative cancer treatments and how he discovered
antineoplastons, which target cancer cells, without destroying normal cells. On Oct. 22nd,
Dr. Burzynski will be on the Larry King Show, with Suzanne Somers. So that will be fun
to watch.
It was great to meet new patients at the clinic and get to hear their amazing healing stories...
how they were led to the clinic and how they are improving in health. Dr. Burzynski has treated
more than 8,000 patients from all over the world and is a bright eyed physician and scientist .
He is known as a visionary genius who is saving untold thousands of lives. I feel that Heavenly
Father has inspired him and I am so grateful for his knowledge and wisdom.
Again, thank you to all of you that are helping me to pay for the pills and the medical bills. I
know that they are costly but they are giving me life...and that makes me happy:) I am also
grateful for insurance which is covering much of my expenses. Everyone that I have talk to at
the clinic has been guided there through prayer. (Except one man that told me that
he has known of the clinic for 20 years and always said that if he got cancer, he would go there)
I have learned that Heavenly Father loves all of his children. It doesn't matter what religion
or what race..he hears their heartfelt prayers. All the people that I have spoken with are so
humble and trust in the Lord and have great faith. They cry tears of gratitude for their healing.
There are so many miracles! It's an amazing place and the spirit is so strong there. I just want
to tell everyone about the Burzynski Clinic and how amazing God is in healing me and so many
others as well!
If you are interested in seeing some fascinating video clips from the fox news channel in Houston,
about different patients and how they are being helped and just what Dr. Burzynski does...then
go to the following link.
http://www.burzynskiclinic.com/ph/media-corner-patient.html
Thursday, June 25, 2009
PET/CT SCAN RESULTS
he said that the lymph nodes in the neck are basically gone. A large node in the chest area was
3.3 x 1.8 and the SUV (How much it sucks up the glucose that was administered through IV)
was 6.6-6.7 Now it is 2.8 x 1.2 cm and has the SUV of 2.7
So, yea, there is definite improvement. He said to pursue getting the Tykerb Medication in
Mexico and to swim regularly or do light exercize. He wants me to "continue doing the
treatment at the Burzynski Clinic and to keep up the positive attitude" as he said.
On Tuesday, Maria and I are off to see Dr. Burzynski and find out more about my health and to
learn of any changes if any in the medication. Thank you to all who make it possible to recover
from this interesting illness. The Lord is continuing to pour out his many blessings upon me and
to heal me as He promised. I'm trying to do the specific things that He has asked me to do and
He in turn is doing His part. Miracles never cease!